Seven dead trees and one boy to mourn them

Life is full of people, who

Are walking around all full, and

I wonder sometimes If I am, the

Only one that’s empty

                                     

And I feel guilty when I sleep

Because I took those people,

For myself and I used them as much,

As I could to feel full, when I was

Hollow

I blew into them like a reed,

Flute with a yellow polish, and

The sound was like a wind that rushed

Through my canyon of a soul, vibrant

But just as empty as before

Maybe I’m meant, to return

To the ground I came from, and cast

My still hands like roots, so that my corpse

May become a home

Star Child

I was born in the belly of a star

The same atoms that fused hydrogen into helium,

Coalesced into my eyes and toes

My fingers reached the furthest stars,

Before they were my fingers

I was born in the belly of a star

Prudent, don’t you think?

A star-child should be destined for greatness

Prudent, a cosmic joke

The irony the universe must enjoy

As I stumble from one drug induced stupor,

To the next

Call me star-child for I ride these waves

My life an ocean of sea salt collecting along the river Nile

I am going back to the sun

I am going back to my mother

I was foolish for trying to be

I was foolish for being born

I don’t Care

I’m an animal

Twisted by my jealous rage

And spurred by such delusions

I pull rabbits out of hats

In hope of finding myself

I look for meaning where it doesn’t belong

In the puddles that crumble beneath my feet,

In the embrace of fellow friends

In the embrace of fellow animals

I search for humans

When you’ve had enough

Good food can buy you satisfaction

Good sex can make you happy even when you wake up alone

Good drugs can take you away from what you want to not want

When you’ve had enough

Catching at the Truth

I will be a monument

I will be a figurehead

I will be a symbol for

The twisted lies inside my head

I will be an animal

I will be a killing spree

I will be the fountain for

The world’s source of apathy

I will be an innocent

I will be the slaughtered lamb

I will be a call too late

I will be God damned

Bad Posture

I want to buy a house

With a little pink fence

Hummingbirds

I want to be unnoticed

A member of the masses

Runaways

Don’t eat,

Not heavy yet

No more room,

For crushed cigarettes

Nothing ever bothers me

I’m too good for charity

I won’t ever lie to thee

People come with warranties

Bet you haven’t heard this before

All streaked up in waves

And thinly plucked straws

Cuz I’m just a kid with a box of strings

Playing on the carpet

Waitin for my daddy to come home

So he can beat me senseless

Relate to it so I may please you

And you can feed me,

Strangely

Runner

I’m having one of those dreams where I can’t move and the thoughts keep spilling into my head like a kid pouring cheerios into a cereal bowl if I could stop I wouldn’t because the dinosaurs are getting closer and I would much prefer not being eaten today not ever actually and I know that this isn’t real but if all of reality is only a perception of the mind doesn’t that mean that nothing else is real or if it is all real then this dream must be real too so in fact I must decide between living in a world where nothing is real and being eaten.

La di do

I don’t care,

About what you do

You ask me to love,

Someone like you

I Found myself, then lost it again

What should I say? I’m already dead

                          

The elf-man plays,

When no one is home

We walk in a line, but not on the road

I Found myself, and lost it again

What did you say?

“Love you my friend”

Take me back inside,

And lose my mind

Built like a young boy,

The last of his kind

Tempered by a soul,

And tempted by a kiss

Taught to be a man,

With an animal’s lisp

The elf-man plays when no one can hear him suffer

The irate fans live like ants inside their mothers

I Found myself, and then I lost it again

Without you here I find myself living

La di da

I don’t care,

About what you do

You ask me to love,

Someone like you

I Found myself, then lost it again

What should I say? I’m already dead

The elf-man plays,

When no one is home

We walk in a line, but not on the road

I Found myself, and lost it again

What did you say?

“Love you my friend”

Spilt like spoiled milk,

We were dazed and diseased

Flying on high above,

I could see past the trees

What was waiting there?

But serpents of despair

They came out of the air

And brought us to our knees

Good news for you,

As they pass on by,

With a devil’s kiss,

And a baby’s lie,

I will try

Nirvana

I’m not like them

And I can’t pretend

This season’s spent

Can’t even vent

I want to get out

Can’t even shout

Can’t even shout

Can’t even shout

The wall’s closing in

But I still pretend

Everything’s fine,

Everything’s fine

Wish you were mine

Everything’s fine,

Everything’s fine,

Everything’s fine

Sometimes I wish,

I could just say

Tell you to go

Tell you to stay

Make up my mind

Tell you I’m fine

Tell you I’m fine

Tell you I’m fine

Wish I was fine

Wish I could tell you

Wish I’d just tell you

And I swear that I don’t have a God

No I don’t have a God

No I don’t have a God

My Girl(friend)

Bit the thumb,

We’re so dumb

Heard my song,

I was wrong

Not the same,

Still to blame

You’re a cancer,

And a dancer

What to say?

I’m so gay

Can’t you see?

It’s not me

Drowning

I’d trade my soul for a voice that could reach the world’s ears

But as things are everything is drowned out

And we’re like fishes without gills

As the room floods from your seeping scars

                                         

The tides coming in

But I’m not there to meet it

Secret Admirer

I hate everything you do

I hide but you haven’t got a clue

I think someday I’ll talk to you

I want what you want to lose

                    

I go home every night

You linger in the lingering light

I want to come talk to you

I say I’ve got nothing left to lose

                                             

I need an easy friend 

I need a helping hand

I tried to say hello to you

You thought I’d gone and caught the flu

I hate everything you do

I hide but you haven’t got a clue

I’ve come to say hello to you

I’ve got nothing left to lose

Solitary

Hey everybody,

I’m a deck of cards

Draw from me,

You’ll never know what you get

Maybe I’ll drown you in love,

Or bury you with a spade

Diamonds are a girl’s best friend,

Clubs can leave a stain

You can pick,

But you can’t choose

Some days we’ll match

Most days you’ll lose

And that’s not any fault of mine

I’m just a deck of cards

So hurry up and draw, friend

Hurry up

She

She’s got beautiful eyes

And she can’t even see

How he sewed them shut

A mockery, a lie, a distant dream

My momma gave me the scissors,

And told me not to run

But that girl, she moved so fast!

I couldn’t keep up

I just couldn’t keep up

When she fell asleep that night,

I came to her with my sharpie

Her eyelids they were sewn so tight

It was so easy

The tip passed along her lashes

As my judgment came to pass

When I left her she looked about the same

Except,

For two words scrawled over those beautiful eyes

“Whatever” and “Nevermind”

China Pot

I got you,

A little china tea pot

A gift from me to you

Happy Birthday

                         

You never drank tea

In that little china tea pot

The phone’s ringing

“Hello?”

You broke it,

My little china tea pot

Its okay-

I never liked it anyway

Toothless Affection

Spit out your teeth

One at a time

Make a tower,

And we’ll play Jenga

Then in the midst of your exploding gums

I tremble slightly,

Bringing that pale obelisk

To the ground

Strawberry Suicide

Reach into the morning

Find a reason to get out of bed

The clock is ticking

Time is money and I’m nearly broke

Rip off the chains I’ve wrapped around my head

But I’m still sinking

Leaping off of skyscrapers

Can take its toll

Got no reason

But these reasons try to take my soul

Man up and wipe the dust away from my eyes

But even still I cannot cry

The double-vision finally takes ahold of me

This road I’m taking, course collision with my destiny

And though I’m blinded by the sun

I now finally see

A bowl of strawberries

Waiting for me

To: God

Oh God please take my nightmares

This cradle fashioned from my darkest dreams,

Can no longer tame my conscience

It’s left my world a broken fantasy

Oh God please take my money

It’s plastered over every table

Those faces, haha they look so funny

I’d kill them all if I was able

Oh God you never listen

These walls they have no ears to understand

But I’ll make sure someone hears them

You’ll have to pry it from my broken hands

Oh God it’s time you stepped down

I’m calling for a new election

This world has got no time for,

Some guy who doesn’t even listen

Winter Rain

The winter rain may come and go

But every day I see the snow

I think of her and what we said

When dreams still danced inside our heads

Skull Face

Paint your finger nails

Black and red

Spin three times

Then cut your head

Dance to the rhythm

Beat the drums

Welcome the night

From wherever it comes

I had a skull for a face

Oh it wasn’t white but black

Yeah I had a skull for a face

I can’t ever go back

You may think I’m gone

But, oh no, that’s not the case

When you wake up in the middle of the night

I’ll be waiting with my skull for a face

Last Day in Hell

All you whores and heretics

All you murderers and thieves

Can you believe it’s finally here?

A day we couldn’t conceive

The gates are wrought in iron

They’re drawn by tethers of flesh

But still hope begins to shine

On the darkest day of rest

Battle horns sound in the mountains

Drum’s toll underneath

And heaven’s mighty angels

Come to the world beneath

Let’s give them a fight to remember

Even as they drive us from existence

For this was our land once

The land of sin’s resistance

Our devil king rouses us

For our blasphemed last stand

And despite all our fury

We fall, dead,

To the last man

Suicidal Sweethearts

Running from perceptions

Try to find my way

A winding road turned to water

Can’t prolong my stay

Got no feelings about this mess

But I’ll tell you how I feel

If I’d been the one in charge

I’d have given myself nerves of steel

                                                            

It’s a shame you had to say that

Cuz I’d always liked you from the start

But I saw you holding that knife like a bible

And I knew you’d kill my heart

I stole myself from you

I stole the love you’d given me

And I buried it alive

In hope of being free

But you were waiting for me in the back room

You sewed my mouth shut with your own

I pulled the trigger

I pulled it twice

And then we were forever

Forever

Alone

Terra Cotta’s Army

They call me Terra Cotta,

‘Cuz I build ‘em like no one else can

Haha they call me Terra Cotta,

For my stones made out of man

                                      

Who are you?

Who are you?

The figments of my mind

What are you?

What are you?

Fruit scraped from the rind

Where are you?

Where are you?

A place that I can’t see

The zombies of my enemies,

Have grabbed ahold of me

Trip

Every days a battle

Every night a victory

The longer I stay awake,

The longer I dwell in misery

The Color of My Name

Forced realizations

Severed old connections

Bring the sinners bleeding

Making no exceptions;

Kill dissenters

Undermine free thinkers

Let no one else in         

But still the pain

It lingers 

I traded you

Cheap lies from the bottom of my pocket

A piece of land for your eyes,

Drowning in the ocean

I moved so slow

Your mind was always workin’

Oh my now I finally see the shape

We’re in

Deep down we’re the same,

We’re the same

You scream,

The color of my name

Oh,

Deep down,

Deep, deep down

Deep down we’re the same,

We’re the same